A house with a spiral staircase

Floors gleaming like the shine of a pearl

A fancy fur sofa that feels as soft as fleece

Sparking decorations sticking all over the wall

We can’t have all those things

But there is one thing in life

Something rich and poor have alike for free

It’s a daydream

On December 23, 2020, I turned 21. This makes me even more afraid of the future, given that no one knows for sure what will happen next. One of my biggest fears is financial problems. Making money is not that easy, even until right now, I believe that all country’s economy experiencing a decline due to this Corona pandemic.

My fear of money sometimes comes from doubting my future-readiness. Sometimes I doubt myself and keep asking, “Can I make money just like other people outside there?” or “Can I buy a house or a car at a certain age?” or…

We live in such a large world, with unpredictable possibilities, we need a guard. Someone stronger. Someone bigger. Someone we hope can be our justification in acting and feeling.

I think atheists are great people. They don’t need a guard. They can stand alone. They can accept the fact that they are alone and have no place to lean on whenever they have problems. I’ve read books when those people claim themselves to be “God”. Oh, sure they are great! Awesome! (Note: I’m not being sarcastic. I really mean it). They may live in tranquility. They can come to terms…

Always searching for a sign

What are we?

I don’t think I’m alright

‘Cause I can’t read your mind

We’ve been catching feelings

We’ve been talking for years

But I need subtitles

What are we?

Tell me do you want this to grow?

Or are you tryna create a stupid show?

Back off if you wanna slow down

Or I will say it out loud

What are we?